We have made some hard decisions about Grandma. She is getting more and more difficult with her Alzheimer's and mental illnesses...it has become more and more apparent to us that we just are not set up and qualified to take care of such illnesses, that at the right care center, they are efficient and trained in taking care of the needs of these people...there are activities, equipment, and nursing staff that work 8-12hr shifts and not a 24/7 situation...our family has sacrificed so much for these last 11 wks....I feel like I have somewhat failed Ilene, but my immediate family is so important to me and her anger and other issues just don't bring peace into our home...it is hard to see her anger when my little grandson Max is here...he, being a little 3 yr old boy, has a lot of energy and she is not tolerant of that at all...I will not give up my time with my Max..more important to me than trying to do something I just am not qualified to do, for someone with little appreciation for that service. We have found a wonderful Care Center.. Washington Terrace in So Ogden. I was really impressed at the staff and the center itself...the fact that they thrive on making and maintaining goals for the residents (which Ilene will have some trouble with, but it will be good for her), activities, state of the art equipment for the care of it's residents etc. Very impressed. We take her on Sunday, Feb 1st....please keep us in your prayers, with her anger and aggression and NOT wanting to go anywhere, this will be a hard day for us all, but in the long run will be better for us all............of course this also brings more challenges...I gave up a good job to stay at home with her, I will now be in need of a part time position somewhere..(they filled my position on Jan 9th..just missed out! Shoot) We have so much coming up in the future at the Schroeder house...Missions, Weddings etc...I just pray something works out for us that will make our family ready for future and life.....sometimes I wish I could have no cares in the world for one day..not realistic I know, and I know others would like that day too, but we just move forward and find the Joy in our Journey....:)
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Really all we can do is try and do are best. Things happen which we can't control or prepare for. You guys tried hard, sacrificed so much. I believe you all will feel peace with moving forward. We will keep you all in are many prayers that things will go well.
I know it's probably hard for you not to feel guilt, but really, you shouldn't. You really did try hard, and sacrificed a LOT to make this work. And we all know that things are in the Lord's hands. She was probably supposed to be with you during those 11 weeks - for you, for her, for some reason - and now, she needs to be cared for elsewhere. It's all part of a bigger plan. You are an amazing woman, and I hope you can feel good about what you have done. We will keep you in our prayers, good luck tomorrow!
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